Not a “fuller understanding”... I understand completely, just don’t buy all of it. I am certainly no atheist and I attend mass and try to use Christs guidance to lead my moral and ethical actions, I just don’t fall into the fully faithful category.
I liked your “nuanced” answer. Perhaps a maturer understanding means that we do give up on some of the “magic thinking” and become more responsible Christians. I thought you said it well.
“I understand completely”
If you think it’s any part of the Catholic faith that priests do magic, you don’t.
If you think it’s any part of the Catholic faith that priests have two-way conversations with God as a benefit of their ordination, you don’t.
If you don’t believe in the Real Presence, that’s a real problem.