I like the way you put that.
It is an apt way to put it, isn’t it? I can attest, in my youthful ignorance I tried, really tried, to dive head first into much of the depravity of the world, it was an easy thing to do and seemingly expected. I never could quite let go like some of the people I encountered, something always held me back ... or looked after me, I lack the words for an explanation. It felt internal but maybe there was more than just an element of external. They knew it, too, never really accepted me, some of them hated me for reasons unknown at the time. I understand now.