What I know, I know God provides for all who study His Word through faith in Christ, while in fellowship with Him.
That’s just you trying like hell to hide and you know it.
What you know is that almost by rote and because it is comfortable and popular among your friends or something you’ve just always accepted you’re believeing something that is directly the opposite of His Word and that in the best case is keeping you from living in Christ as you should and in the worst case is keeping you from salvation.
have a nice day