Hebrews 6:13-20 (New King James Version)
Gods Infallible Purpose in Christ
13 For when God made a promise to Abraham, because He could swear by no one greater, He swore by Himself, 14 saying, Surely blessing I will bless you, and multiplying I will multiply you.[a] 15 And so, after he had patiently endured, he obtained the promise. 16 For men indeed swear by the greater, and an oath for confirmation is for them an end of all dispute. 17 Thus God, determining to show more abundantly to the heirs of promise the immutability of His counsel, confirmed it by an oath, 18 that by two immutable things, in which it is impossible for God to lie, we might[b] have strong consolation, who have fled for refuge to lay hold of the hope set before us.
19 This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil, 20 where the forerunner has entered for us, even Jesus, having become High Priest forever according to the order of Melchizedek.
God tells us we have free will. If He takes it away, it makes Him a liar which He says is an impossibility.
God has to abide by the rules He makes for us to trust Him.
God thinks so. That is all that matters. He asked Jesus to do it and He complied. Jesus used His free will to please His Father and save us of all.
Was it fair that Jesus chose 12 men to follow Him closely on earth and left everyone else out?
Was it fair that Jesus chose 3 men to be in His inner circle and left the other 9 out?
Was it fair that Jesus explained the parables to His disciples, without explaining them to the crowds?
All of this is the Church of the Magisterium making suppositions to bolster their claim that Jesus spent extra time with them to instruct them in the governance of a non scriptural physical earthly church.
He choose lots of people. You could just as easily suppose these men draw closer to Jesus because they believed Him more than the others. If He had truly shown favoritism to them, it would have been a sin.
God is way too big for our little minds. Rather than trying to reason your way to him, you need to humble yourself before His Word, and let Him tell you what Hes like. Let Him tell you about fairness. You should never rely on your own sense of right and wrong, and you should never, never, never rely on your own thought of God, for that is the essence of idolatry. I am sorry you think God is way be too big for your little mind. Jesus told me to come with the mind of a child and His Spirit will guide me.
It is only for my heavenly Father to judge whether my thoughts offend Him. He is the only One who matters.
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