Honesty is to be highly prized. When you saw yourself as being a hypocrite you were closer to God than you could even imagine! God IS, and He IS a rewarder of those who dilligently seek Him. I’m sorry you think you’ve stopped seeking Him ... your very involvement on a thread like this one shows you still acknowledge He IS, though you’ve yet to find a particular convention which suits your quest to know Whom He IS. You have my respect, for what it’s worth.
False Mormonic Jesus Placemarker
Thank you, I had one heck of a wrestling match going on in my mind for about a year when that came about.It really was quite a turmoil, abandoning all my childhood beliefs and expressing them to family.Sorta like being told to believe in Santa Claus as a small child and then realizing as you get older that it was just a fairy tale used as a control measure by parents. I wonder how many parents realize the damage they do with those stories. The boogie man was another corelated many times along with the devil. I really am a mixed bag of beliefs really but not of the conventional sort.The heaven and hell bit just doesn’t resonate with me as depicted in the bible.Probably the biggest factor was being told I HAD to believe and act in a certain way to attain happiness or burn in eternal damnation.It all started Back in the early 60’s, in grade school during bible study I had asked a simple question about prehistoric fossiles and why there was no mention about it in the bible. I was told they never existed, that it was made up, junk science inspired by the devil to lure one away from the bibles true teachings. As I got older I felt that I was again being lied to, again as a matter of someone else having control. Funny, I feel the same way about our goverment.