You have been asked to provide that answer numerous posts now. You have obfuscated and deflected. If that answer is not important enough for you to deliver straight up - then it isn't worth my time trying to 'seek'. The only lazyness is on the part of the one who won't man-up and answer the question straight on.
Seek the face of YHvH in His Holy Word. I guess that sums up your life.
shalom b'SHEM Yah'shua HaMashiach