“The latter argument is interesting: God is supposed to own the soul and it is a gift (in Jewish writings, a deposit) to the individual.”
What the hell kind of “gift” is this?! I never asked for it and sure as hell don’t want it! Life is nothing but a festering cesspool of cruelty and evil. There is no grand purpose, no beauty, no goodness, and no hope for the future. People cannot be aided or saved. There is no heaven. God is not in charge and most likely doesn’t exist.
The only reason I stick around is out of a completely irrational sense of duty. If I cease to be useful, suicide will be performed immediately.
Your post makes me feel the same way I feel when I listen to Billie Holiday strung out.
There is a God. There is potential for good. There is goodness on this earth. Haven’t you ever been in love?