Yes this was/is me. It has been a life long process. It is still on going. The answer of course is Jesus Christ our Lord, the way the truth and the life. There is tremendous joy and peace in the grace of God when these idols fall.
I am blessed because my Pastor for the last 7 years has done a wonderful job revealing to me the truth of what you are saying Quix, especially by his life witness. He has been truly persecuted for the truth of Jesus Christ our Lord these last 7 years. No one can personally "get his goat". The abuse on him is like water rolling off a duck's back, or teflon. God's grace shines in his face. This makes satan and his forces furious.