"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God....And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we saw his glory, the glory as it were of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth."
If that means what you say it means then the Bible is full of contradictions and is pretty much worthless for a basis for spiritual truth.
Fortunately I believe you to be wrong and the Bible correct. Jesus is God's son. God says so. Jesus says so.
But you disagree. Not my problem.
You can try all you want to convince me that Jesus is really not God's son but is really God. And you can try really, really hard that three is really one and that one really means three.
But it isn't going to work.