Fascinating . . . reminds me . . .
I’ve observed in my life . . . that generally speaking . . .
prayers of bitterness, resentment, hostility, despising hatred, and the like
are not particularly powerful . . . i.e. in good ways.
Thankfully, God is sovereign. Maybe He makes allowences where there’s a microgram of good intension thrown in with all the seething bitterness.
Actually, I pray that God will bless you with the wonderful love of a mother for a lonely, lost child. I pray He will introduce you to His mother, and that she will lead you to become worthy of the promises of Christ.