Amen. I hear you. Please try and lift your head up, my FRiend and be not so downcast, for GREATER is HE who is within us than he who is in the world.
There was an abandonned temple on Seaver St. in Boston, overgrown with bushes and trees, but carved in stone on the side were these words:
NOT BY MIGHT, NOT BY POWER, BUT BY MY SPIRIT SAITH THE LORD.
I often drove by this buiding to and from work, and in my darkest days, those words encouraged me.
We must never forget, and never cease praying.