That’s so true. You cannot make yourself believe or have faith. And if there is a God, God knows if you are faking it or lying to yourself. I can’t lie to myself, I have begun to have serious doubts about what I have been taught about God.
I just figure whatever God wants me to know or believe about Him, I will. Personally, I don’t think He wants us to make as big a deal out of our beliefs, as we do.