Do you believe that everybody who goes to court gets the justice to which they are entitled? That makes me wonder how you could have accused ME of disordered thinking. And you did say that you “have no idea what happened in the courtroom.” Further, I did not file the lawsuit to “learn about myself, the law, and God.” T
ose were by-products of my attempt to be compensated for the damages I incurred.
Contrary to your assumption that I am “thumbing my nose” at treatment, I have stated in other posts that I have been in treatment continuously since 1994 and have not missed even one dose of medication in 3 years.
I am not currently employed. 18 years after first being diagnosed, I applied for was awarde social security disability benefits. However, not being currently employed does not change the fact that bipolar is a blessing to me. One can be greatly blessed regardless of whether he has a job. Am I not free to decide for myself what is a blessing in my life? Or is that determination the province of a shrink?
Speaking as one who has suffered from depression for better than 30 years since I was a small child, I do not consider it a blessing in the least, I find it akin to having Satan’s jackboot on my neck. A curse and horror of unimaginable proportions.
No, but I looked up your case, and the original decision is published in full online. One the several reasons for your lack of success was "failure to state a claim". Not surprising, because that was one of things I noticed missing from the description in your original post. Clearly stating a claim -- to which specific law applies, and over which the court in question has jurisdiction -- is a prerequisite to success in any lawsuit. There is no indication that your case wasn't handled in full accordance with the law.
One of the symptoms of the manic phases of bipolar disorder is extreme overconfidence. The fact that you chose to pursue your case without benefit of qualified legal counsel was therefore probably the direct result of your "blessing" (either that, or no lawyer was willing to take your case, because you had no legal basis for an action against the law school). Nobody can stop you from going around felling blessed, and I'm glad to hear you're under professional treatment and taking medication. But effort is also required in order to get good results, and that generally requires recognizing that there's a problem. I'm sure there are alcoholics lying in a drunken stupor, imagining that they're "blessed", but until they focus on the fact that they're alcoholics they aren't going get any better, and their "blessing" will continue to be a drag on the rest of society.
I realize it's not your fault that you suffer from mental illness, but please do your best to recognize the *bad* effects of it, so that you can work on making those effects go away. Do not assume that this would make the blessings go away too -- if the blessings are real, they won't be driven away by improvements in other areas.