That's Protestant for "my feelings." And yes, that's what it all comes down to in the end.
Ironically, you're one of those who admit that the messianic prophecies are literal rather than "spiritual" and therefore that not all the prophecies have been fulfilled. Until they have, no messiah has come.
Historically, Jews have had no adequate explanation for the
Old Testament’s presentation of
1. MESSIAH AS SUFFERING SERVANT
AND AS
2. CONQUERING KING.
The New Testament works that out quite neatly.