There is your fundamental problem...Jesus is the SON of God.
Until you can regocnize who Jesus is and who he isn't you will never go far spiritually.
Heck, even satan knows that Jesus is the Son of God!
Jesus is the SON of God AND Jesus is God.
“Then He said to Thomas, ‘Reach your finger here, and look at My hands; and reach your hand here, and put it into My side. Do not be unbelieving, but believing.’ And Thomas answered and said to Him, ‘My Lord and my God!’” (John 20:27-28)
“I and My Father are one.” (John 10:30)
“Philip said to Him, ‘Lord, show us the Father, and it is sufficient for us.’ Jesus said to him, “Have I been with you so long, and yet you have not known Me, Philip? He who has seen Me has seen the Father, so how can you say, ‘Show us the Father?’” (John 14:8-9)