The Lord wishes all salvation. He also grants us free will. I started the quoted paragraph with 'for me'. I was a dreadful sinner before I returned to the faith of my youth. My responsibility is to repent, as John the Baptist exclaimed.
Did God give you saving Grace because you examined your life and repented?
I was a dreadful sinner before I returned to the faith of my youth. My responsibility is to repent, as John the Baptist exclaimed.
And did God give you Grace because of those efforts of yours? Once you did those things did God owe you Grace as if it were payment for services rendered?
Any salvific system that does not start and end with God's Grace is not the one described in the Bible.