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The “stuff” I say comes directly from the Bible. If you refuse to read the book I suggested or the Bible itself,
I recommend a web sites that will give you a fuller and more detailed explanation of God and man's relationship to God. The web site is kenboa.org. Boa has a couple of Ph.D.’s, including one from Oxford, and his grasp of Biblical truth is far superior to mine.
I am as God made me, but I realize that I (as do all humans) live in a fallen and sinful world. Surely you don't believe this world is perfect or as God intended it to be. Consequently, I sin, though I don't want to. Yet I know to the marrow of my soul that the Creator of the universe loves me and wants only my joy. The greatest joy will be complete intimacy with Him, which is not available during this life. Such intimacy in the world to come can be had, but only if the sins we commit in this life are expiated and we live in repentance. A perfect and holy God cannot have fellowship with a sinful creature. All sin must be paid for. You can pay for it yourself, or you can let God pay the price for you, which He did willingly by sending His Son to pay the price for your sins, to die in your place and for the sins of the whole world. You have a chance in this world to allow God to redeem you from sin. You must make that choice yourself. I strongly urge you to make it, as after you die (you do realize you're going to die, don't you?) the choice will be available no longer. You only have one chance, and that occurs during this life. Blessedly, we can make that choice at any time prior to death. As you have no idea when you're going to die, I urge you to put your faith in the atoning death and resurrection of Jesus. God is waiting for you to chose Him and the salvation He offers.
Again, my knowledge is Christian doctrine is quite limited. Please visit the website I mentioned. If you pride yourself on your learning, what have you to lose? If you won't visit the site, please think about what I've written. Don't allow your pride and self-satisfaction stand between you and eternal life.