No, it is a heartfelt disgust with the evil I see played out every day on the religious forums, and my heartfelt desire to do the will of God every day in my life, without making incumbent on anyone else to take the same course I have.
But you are free to think as you like, of course.
Well, I hope it’s clear you are only representing yourself in this vanity and not other Catholics or Catholic teaching. Please be careful how you are presenting the faith whilst you go through your own personal anguish.
Emotionalism is not what the faith is about. Peace.