I studied this matter — it is not a matter of feelings.
I feel the same way.
As a technical writer, I spend a lot of time around engineers. Smart people. Whose bottom-line approach to life sometimes is -- "If you were as smart as me, and had studied as hard as I have, then you would agree with me." We cannot disentangle our "hearts" and "minds," the way pietists do, since we are, in the totality of our beings, affected by the fall, and redeemed unto life. I have brought all my faculties to bear upon the question at hand, on my own and in company with other serious thinkers.
In all humility, and recognizing the grace you have experienced, I have come to a different conclusion than you.