“We don’t know the names of the elect, so we judge men by their fruit.
But it’s clear from Scripture that some men are “beyond redemption.” Christ Himself said it would have been better for Judas never to have been born than for what awaited him, and that Christ knew from the beginning who would betray Him so that the Scriptures would be fulfilled.”
This is the definition of the doctrine of Election. Maybe you’re chosen, and maybe you’re not. Hope you got lucky!
I feel sorry for you.
Discuss the issues all you want, but do NOT make it personal.