Thank you oh so very much for sharing your testimony and insights, dear brother in Christ! Of a Truth, there is only one Great Commandment: to love God with all our heart and soul and mind. (Matthew 22:37-38)
If we miss that one, nothing else we do will matter as the church of Ephesus discovered:
Unto the angel of the church of Ephesus write; These things saith he that holdeth the seven stars in his right hand, who walketh in the midst of the seven golden candlesticks; I know thy works, and thy labour, and thy patience, and how thou canst not bear them which are evil: and thou hast tried them which say they are apostles, and are not, and hast found them liars: And hast borne, and hast patience, and for my name's sake hast laboured, and hast not fainted. Nevertheless I have [somewhat] against thee, because thou hast left thy first love.
Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick out of his place, except thou repent. – Revelation 2:1-5
Maranatha, Jesus!!!