I think
musings and leanings
are fitting to my own experience.
Given my personality . . . they seem like rather muted words but . . . that’s another issue.
Perhaps I’d call musings my ponderings.
And leanings, my convictions from prayerful podnering.
But you’re the gracious saint and I’m the . . . something in a china shop goading the other uhhhhhh donkeys to uhhhhh learn how to throw pots from the Master or get the well out of the china shop.
I think, for me, convictions . . . are my convictions. I may FEEL like others ought to share the convictions but they don’t rise to the level of clear and plain Scriptural doctrine, per se. I’m rather comfortable having my convictions rejected as not orthodox . . . at least most of the time. LOL. . . . though I may pontificate as though they are priceless gems on occasion. They do usually come with some experience with Scripture and life of Holy Spirit having confirmed them a several times.
Ponderings are more postulations, hypotheses . . . things on the theological shelf waiting to see what of them God confirms in this time/space dimension and/or eternity.
THX
LUB
I do like your terms "ponderings" and "convictions."
As for me, when I attach a lot of narrative to the Scriptures to prosecute a conviction (in my lingo, a leaning) then I have weighted the reply towards the pondering (in my lingo, musing) side of the scale and it loses strength.