I don't know Mother Theresa. All I'm going by is that, based upon information from the person who wished to canonized her, for the last half of her life she repeatedly wrote letters questioning the existence of God. Personally, if someone knew this, why would anyone seek to have her canonized? That is what puzzles me.
You've never been a man? A wandering organic mass of self-interest and discontent? The Apostles themselves had moments of reflection, no?
” I believe Lord, help Thou my unbelief”
Please read some of her other writings. Keep in mind that Satan sends those closest to God the heaviest crosses to bear. He desires nothing more than our eternal defeat. The stronger the resistence to his lies the heavier are the weapons he uses against us. Satan sent Mother Teresa a cross of doubt. Which can weigh very heavily on one who has dedicated her life to bringing the love of Christ to the world. If she had kept these doubts inside rather than express them I think they would have been more of a poison to her soul. Instead she shared them with others and let a secret burden be known. It was an act of humility to admit that she, who so many thought as having a direct pipeline to God, knew the dark night of the soul.
She could have said “ I doubt God exists, so I will stop worshipping Him and become an atheist”
That would have been easy. In fact it would have endeared her to much of the secular West. She choose the hard road. Doubting but doing everything for Christ’s sake not her own. Shapiing her life in the outline in faith. Knowing deep in her heart that acts of faith yield as they must to facts of faith. She loved Christ above all and I pray that she died in a state of grace and know shares in His Glory with all the faithfull departed.