Unfortunately, the institution itself has become the Devil’s tool, and has been for the last millenium. I will pray for you. Early on in my Christian life I was a catechumen in the RCIA and was fortunately delivered by Evangelicals, who told me, yes, indeed, it was not necessary to pray to “our mother, the earth,” as I was instructed to do by a nun, backed up by a priest. The Roman church is not just full of sinners. It IS sin, with a few lonely Christians here and there trying to redeem it, for the sake of a missed latin ritual.
Were the Israelites abandoned by God during their enforced 40-year wandering for infidelity, or was that wandering merely a punishment or winnowing of a people still chosen by God? Is it possible that the same sort of 40-year wandering in theological silliness has been going on in the developed West to the same end? After all, this pope seems determined that 40 years is long enough, and the time has come to put a stop to the foolishness. The infidelity to authentic church teching is about to come to an abrupt end. The winnowing here will have its effect, just as it did for the Israelites.
It’s unfortunate that you were involved in what sounds like a pretty bogus RCIA program, run by entrenched allies of the Enemy. But they are being rooted out in due course. All along, though, the official teaching of the Church has not changed, and it was always not too hard to find. Thinking that Catholicism is *actually* an earth goddess religion might be excusable given your RCIA experience, but surely you must have known that, had you dug deeper on your own initiative, instead of taking immediate scandal, you would have found out what the Church really is and what it stands for. You can certainly glean this information from the many well-catechized Catholics on this very forum. Better days are already at hand. I will pray for you, too.