You are a little over 100% wrong...
Heb 4:16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
The throne of grace is not in your church nor any church you've ever been in...
There is no person or being that has set foot on the face of the earth that is, or ever has been in the person of Christ, except for the Holy Spirit...
So you have never confessed any of your sins directly to Jesus...You have not asked Him to forgive you, or save you???