Of course I can veto God - just as Adam and Eve did in the Garden. My salvation is dependent on my acceptance of God's mercy. God extends His mercy to all, but many reject it. Many people hate God and then there are others with varying degrees of non-interest. I am trying, with all I say and do, to show Jesus how much I love Him. Being still afflicted with a free will, I fail, because I sometimes choose myself over others. Jesus gives us many examples of those who do not do His will and He will judge us all. But as He said of the woman who wiped His feet with her hair, "She is forgiven much, because she loved much." So love is the key. We love because He first loved us. How do we love? By showing His love to others and by doing His will, in everything we say and do.
I am quite amazed at your candor. I don't think I have ever witnessed those words being posted so boldly. So God votes you in and you vote him out? Is that the way it works?
So what you must be saying is that your salvation (your eternal destiny) is not wholly dependent upon God's mercy but is solely dependent upon your own unencumbered free will choice? That it is not God who has the final say in whether or not you are saved, but you?
Could God choose you against your free will? Is it possible that God could save you in spite of your free will rather than because of it?
Or is your salvation in your own (free will) hands?