Not sure of all the dynamics and variables that may have been involved . . . curious results, to me . . .
But in general . . . far be it from me to try and make a bigger statement in your life on that score--than God evidently did--given a fair experiment etc.
As K mentioned the Prayer of the Heart was/is one such "experiment." I'm a bit dryer than some RCs, so take that into consideration also.
But something I wish you would experiment with: Imagine that you are a finite being longing for union with the Infinite and indescrible in words. Imagine the Infinite is speaking, wordlessly to you through your heart and through your longing. And is also communicating to you through your senses - through beauty.
And looking carefully and attentively, whenever you see true beauty, and you will see it more and more, imagine that this is the Infinite waving to you and shining through the finite wall.
Try this for 90 days...
:)