Amen! Isn't it just a splendid awareness?
My 13 year old son recently asked me how do I know I became a Christian because I wanted to, or because you wanted me to?
I remember arguing with my father when I was in college and I snarled that I had become an agnostic (having just learned the word and was very impressed with myself for understanding it.)
I expected an argument (for my dad loved nothing better than a loud and raucous debate.) But instead he just smiled and said, "One day you'll need your faith, and it will be there for you."
I sputtered some gibberish, deflated by his arrogant calm. How dare he not fight back on this egregious error of his.
And then, of course, I grew up and gradually realized the faith God had blessed me with was there all along, waiting for my life to catch up to it.
And now when my son says to me, "prove it," I just smile and give him my father's answer.
It drives him nuts. But he's been reading the Bible again lately, so I think he's going to catch on much faster than I did. 8~)
I'm glad you picked up on my perspective as well. In this process of questioning I see the LORD opening his eyes. If he looks for the answers in Scripture he will find them!