-A8
With all due respect, my FRiend, I got the point completely. To paraphrase from C.S. Lewis, I've seen what evil can do - and I've helped do it. When you've physically embraced a mass murderer, when you've seen evil on a scale so huge that it beggars description, you realize that a righteous, holy God's stance towards me should be one of complete condemnation and damnation. Only His mercy, unwarranted and undeserved, saves me from that damnation.
God's stance towards me? Honestly, I don't know. All signs point towards my being among the elect, but frankly, I won't know for sure until I stand (or, more likely, grovel) before the Judgement Seat. The real question is, does it matter? I'll either get what I entirely deserve or I won't. Either way, the choice is God's alone to make. The clay doesn't get to tell the Potter what it wants to be.