Your entire premise of belief is based on individualism. But individualism, in matters of Christian faith, is demonstrably prone to division. It clearly is not what Jesus intended. He formed ONE Church, and promised to preserve it from error all days till the end of time. He did not promise to make all of its members impeccable. You seem to have problems with both concepts, but particularly the latter. You will not understand the providence of God in these matters because you WILL not to understand. God cannot be double-talked as if He were buying a car from a slick used-car salesman, however. I wish you well in your defense when you come before Him, as you evidently know the issues better than your murky and incorrect expositions of your self-teaching would initially indicate. Though you'll reject them, you have my prayers. I don't bother anymore to remonstrate round after round with people who clearly know the arguments Catholicism makes, but maintain a rhetorical style that postures along the lines that they've never heard of such arguments. I sure hope that that is what the Church has in mind by "invicible ignorance," but I'm not too persuaded that the "in" in "invincible" readily applies under those circumstances.