I have not the slightest doubt in either case. :) Thank you so much, Dr. E., for those wonderful passages. I truly feel that this whole experience has been such an incredible blessing.
I didn't really know, and still don't know Calvinism through and through, when I made that statement. I had a very general sense of of it.
I don't know how to explain how I came to know it better, and the affinity that ensued, except to relay that when I read of the Doctrine of Sovereign Grace, something inside, that was rigid and frozen, thawed. It actually felt like I thawed. I know that probably sounds crazy, but I don't know how else to put it into words.
I hate to quote that crazy Nietchze (sp? - who I think might have been a bit misunderstood, while fully admitting he was no fan of Christians), but this struggle has made me a lot stronger, and my Faith more profound. And I've only just begun.