No doubt. Too bad.
I would suggest you return to Scripture and find the comfort and assurance God has given His sheep.
My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me: And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. " -- John 10:26-28"But ye believe not, because ye are not of my sheep, as I said unto you.
"These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world." -- John 16:33
I am glad to learn that the elect are capable of pity for those who are ordainded by God before the creation of the world for eternal damnation.