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Prayer and Meditation: David and Absalom
12/30/05 | Knitting a Conundrum

Posted on 12/30/2005 5:44:02 AM PST by Knitting A Conundrum

The king was shaken, and went up to the room over the city gate to weep. He said as he wept, "My son Absalom! My son, my son Absalom! If only I had died instead of you, Absalom, my son, my son!" 2 Samuel 19,1

Dear Lord,
remind us how you grieve
when each falls,
turning away from you finally,
and chosing to rebel,
enters into that darkness
from which there is no return.

Like David weeping
for the son who caused him such grief,
so you grieve for each of us
who dies that final death,
for that rebellious child
who you watched for
like a man hoping against hope,
no fatted calf to slaughter in celebration,
no best robe to take out of storage,
no ring to take out of its box.

Forgive us, Lord,
for not reaching out when we should,
with the word to turn our brother's feet,
or the touch that might have made all the difference,
or the prayer left unspoken.
Help us to remember your kindness,
to be open to your Spirit,
And through the Spirit,
may we
say the right word,
do the right action
to lead our brother home at last.

Amen.


TOPICS: Catholic; Prayer
KEYWORDS: catholic; children; grieving; meditation; prayer
This is both a prayer-meditation on God, and a personal meditation on mine and so many other families where there is a troubled youth coming of age.

Lady of consolation,
Mother of sorrow,
I come to you,
like so many mothers before
grief struck,
aching,
in pain.

You know how it works,
with your experienced, motherly, heavenly eye,
as our babies grow into adults
and our hearts begin to break.

Watching the transformation
has been such a painful thing,
O Mother of sorrows,
as my child shot up,
like a reed, a weed,
from curious, open, clever child,
tow haired and bright eyed,
to sullen adult
who has done everything just right
to be unhappy,
sad,
miserable,
looking everywhere but where he should
to fill that gap in his heart.

Remembering my youth
so long ago,
when  it was my turn to be  the sullen child,
no doubt the cause of my mother's anxieties,
a burden to her heart,
I have hopes
he will choose the light.

It can be such a hard road to find, Blessed Mother,
even with you,
the angels and saints
and your Son working, praying to lead us on.

I fear,
like so many mothers before me
that he will not last long enough to reach that point
where his heart opens up,
I fear he will  get caught in the snares of his own hand,
and stumble into that night forever.

My golden haired boy,
I weep for you,
not in anger
for the little wrongs you have done,
the small thefts,
the stupid decisions,
the drinking,
the lies,
but for the small child who stole my heart
so long ago,
motherless and so in need,
little boy lost
who I will never see again,
child of promise that I could not protect,
could not truly heal,
must needs let go
to find his own path,
his own way,
even as watching
pierces my heart with its own sword,
the fate of mothers.

O Mother of Sorrows,
I come to you with my burdened heart,
my fears,
my griefs,
for I know you understand.
Like David weeping for Absalom,
I kneel on the ground,
keening,
heart breaking for love,
for evil I cannot prevent,
for choices not mine to make.

O Blessed Mother,
How well you know the pain
of watching something
you were unable to stop,
and knew the taste of the grief filling your heart.

Pray for us,
O holy Mother of God,
all the mothers,
and all the fathers, too,
watching helpless and in grief
while their children suffer
from these self-inflicted wounds.

O Lord,
Hold these children in your hands,
send your angels to watch over their steps,
and in the end,
may they find their way to you.

Amen.
1 posted on 12/30/2005 5:44:03 AM PST by Knitting A Conundrum
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2 posted on 12/30/2005 5:45:10 AM PST by Knitting A Conundrum (Act Justly, Love Mercy, and Walk Humbly With God Micah 6:8)
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To: Knitting A Conundrum

The story of Absalom, who even though he had killed a half-brother of his, been rebellious for years, plotted to take over the kingdom, and actually led a rebellion that drove David out of the city of Jerusalem should tell us something.

Note how, all through the rebellion, David worried about the life of his son. And although he knew from past experience that he could not trust Absalom, he still wasn't seeking his death, wanted some sort of reconcilliation, and wept bitterly at his death.

A human love, but this should tell us something. When we look at the parable of the prodigal son, we see Jesus telling us about the Father's love and willingness to forgive. The Father lets the son go, but waits patiently, hoping for his return, and unlike David, was able to forgive that wrong he did, and welcome the lost son back.

Every one of us with children coming of age can see in a way we couldn't before. We have to let go and let them live their lives, even when they are doing things that break our hearts.

Imagine, then, God watching us, seeing us make the bad decisions, the wrong choices, grieving with us in our losses, sending word through friend and foe alike to come home. He doesn't make us come home, but when we do, what celebration in Heaven there is for the lost one come to salvation.


3 posted on 12/30/2005 7:59:43 AM PST by Knitting A Conundrum (Act Justly, Love Mercy, and Walk Humbly With God Micah 6:8)
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To: Knitting A Conundrum

First of all, you should publish.

And second, I had never looked at the story of David and Absolom in exactly that way before. And I relate it to my own wayward son who has strayed and I pray he finds his way home to his faith. Your post touched my heart.


4 posted on 12/30/2005 8:04:15 AM PST by GOPPachyderm
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To: Knitting A Conundrum

O Lord,
you hear the calling
of your children on earth,
the weeping of the wronged,
the grief of the bereft,
the misery of those who live through injustice.
How you long to show mercy to us.

O Lord,
you see your children
choosing each to go their own way,
choosing to believe
the whispers of the darkness
the promises of emptiness
the answers of meaninglessness.
How you are ready to have mercy on us.

O Lord,
you taught us what was true,
you who gave your life
as a sacrifice,
a sign,
a token
a marker in the wilderness,
in that wondrous outreach
where you showed us your true mercy,
yet like the father of the prodigal,
you let us all go our own way,
until we come to our senses
and realize what we have lost.

O Lord,
on that day
which comes to each of us,
some time
at some dark moment,
when like the prodigal
we awake and realize our emptiness,
when we reach out for your light,
may we find the hand of those you send to guide us
pointing us to the way home.

Amen.


5 posted on 12/30/2005 8:29:00 AM PST by Knitting A Conundrum (Act Justly, Love Mercy, and Walk Humbly With God Micah 6:8)
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To: Knitting A Conundrum

1 And David numbered the people that were with him, and set captains of thousands and captains of hundreds over them.

2 And David sent forth the people, a third part under the hand of Joab, and a third part under the hand of Abishai the son of Zeruiah, Joab's brother, and a third part under the hand of Ittai the Gittite. And the king said unto the people, I will surely go forth with you myself also.

3 But the people said, Thou shalt not go forth: for if we flee away, they will not care for us; neither if half of us die, will they care for us: but thou art worth ten thousand of us; therefore now it is better that thou be ready to succor us out of the city.

4 And the king said unto them, What seemeth you best I will do. And the king stood by the gate-side, and all the people went out by hundreds and by thousands.

5 And the king commanded Joab and Abishai and Ittai, saying, Deal gently for my sake with the young man, even with Absalom. And all the people heard when the king gave all the captains charge concerning Absalom.

6 So the people went out into the field against Israel: and the battle was in the forest of Ephraim.

7 And the people of Israel were smitten there before the servants of David, and there was a great slaughter there that day of twenty thousand men.

8 For the battle was there spread over the face of all the country; and the forest devoured more people that day than the sword devoured.

9 And Absalom chanced to meet the servants of David. And Absalom was riding upon his mule, and the mule went under the thick boughs of a great oak, and his head caught hold of the oak, and he was taken up between heaven and earth; and the mule that was under him went on.

10 And a certain man saw it, and told Joab, and said, Behold, I saw Absalom hanging in an oak.

11 And Joab said unto the man that told him, And, behold, thou sawest it, and why didst thou not smite him there to the ground? and I would have given thee ten pieces of silver, and a girdle.

12 And the man said unto Joab, Though I should receive a thousand pieces of silver in my hand, yet would I not put forth my hand against the king's son; for in our hearing the king charged thee and Abishai and Ittai, saying, Beware that none touch the young man Absalom.

13 Otherwise if I had dealt falsely against his life (and there is no matter hid from the king), then thou thyself wouldest have set thyself against me.

14 Then said Joab, I may not tarry thus with thee. And he took three darts in his hand, and thrust them through the heart of Absalom, while he was yet alive in the midst of the oak.

15 And ten young men that bare Joab's armor compassed about and smote Absalom, and slew him.

16 And Joab blew the trumpet, and the people returned from pursuing after Israel; for Joab held back the people.

17 And they took Absalom, and cast him into the great pit in the forest, and raised over him a very great heap of stones: and all Israel fled every one to his tent.

18 Now Absalom in his lifetime had taken and reared up for himself the pillar, which is in the king's dale; for he said, I have no son to keep my name in remembrance: and he called the pillar after his own name; and it is called Absalom's monument, unto this day.

19 Then said Ahimaaz the son of Zadok, Let me now run, and bear the king tidings, how that Jehovah hath avenged him of his enemies.

20 And Joab said unto him, Thou shalt not be the bearer of tidings this day, but thou shalt bear tidings another day; but this day thou shalt bear no tidings, because the king's son is dead.

21 Then said Joab to the Cushite, Go, tell the king what thou hast seen. And the Cushite bowed himself unto Joab, and ran.

22 Then said Ahimaaz the son of Zadok yet again to Joab, But come what may, let me, I pray thee, also run after the Cushite. And Joab said, Wherefore wilt thou run, my son, seeing that thou wilt have no reward for the tidings?

23 But come what may, said he, I will run. And he said unto him, Run. Then Ahimaaz ran by the way of the Plain, and outran the Cushite.

24 Now David was sitting between the two gates: and the watchman went up to the roof of the gate unto the wall, and lifted up his eyes, and looked, and, behold, a man running alone.

25 And the watchman cried, and told the king. And the king said, If he be alone, there is tidings in his mouth. And he came apace, and drew near.

26 And the watchman saw another man running; and the watchman called unto the porter, and said, Behold, another man running alone. And the king said, He also bringeth tidings.

27 And the watchman said, I think the running of the foremost is like the running of Ahimaaz the son of Zadok. And the king said, He is a good man, and cometh with good tidings.

28 And Ahimaaz called, and said unto the king, All is well. And he bowed himself before the king with his face to the earth, and said, Blessed be Jehovah thy God, who hath delivered up the men that lifted up their hand against my lord the king.

29 And the king said, Is it well with the young man Absalom? And Ahimaaz answered, When Joab sent the king's servant, even me thy servant, I saw a great tumult, but I knew not what it was.

30 And the king said, Turn aside, and stand here. And he turned aside, and stood still.

31 And, behold, the Cushite came; and the Cushite said, Tidings for my lord the king; for Jehovah hath avenged thee this day of all them that rose up against thee.

32 And the king said unto the Cushite, Is it well with the young man Absalom? And the Cushite answered, The enemies of my lord the king, and all that rise up against thee to do thee hurt, be as that young man is.

33 And the king was much moved, and went up to the chamber over the gate, and wept: and as he went, thus he said, O my son Absalom, my son, my son Absalom! would I had died for thee, O Absalom, my son, my son!


6 posted on 12/30/2005 9:30:04 AM PST by Knitting A Conundrum (Act Justly, Love Mercy, and Walk Humbly With God Micah 6:8)
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To: Knitting A Conundrum

Luke 15

11 And he said, A certain man had two sons:

12 and the younger of them said to his father, Father, give me the portion of thy substance that falleth to me. And he divided unto them his living.

13 And not many days after, the younger son gathered all together and took his journey into a far country; and there he wasted his substance with riotous living.

14 And when he had spent all, there arose a mighty famine in that country; and he began to be in want.

15 And he went and joined himself to one of the citizens of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.

16 And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him.

17 But when he came to himself he said, How many hired servants of my father's have bread enough and to spare, and I perish here with hunger!

18 I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight:

19 I am no more worthy to be called your son: make me as one of thy hired servants.

20 And he arose, and came to his father. But while he was yet afar off, his father saw him, and was moved with compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.

21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight: I am no more worthy to be called thy son.

22 But the father said to his servants, Bring forth quickly the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet:

23 and bring the fatted calf, and kill it, and let us eat, and make merry:

24 for this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.

25 Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the house, he heard music and dancing.

26 And he called to him one of the servants, and inquired what these things might be.

27 And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound.

28 But he was angry, and would not go in: and his father came out, and entreated him.

29 But he answered and said to his father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, and I never transgressed a commandment of thine; and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends:

30 but when this thy son came, who hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou killedst for him the fatted calf.

31 And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that is mine is thine.

32 But it was meet to make merry and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found.


7 posted on 12/30/2005 9:32:29 AM PST by Knitting A Conundrum (Act Justly, Love Mercy, and Walk Humbly With God Micah 6:8)
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To: Knitting A Conundrum

Hear, my son, your father's instruction,
and reject not your mother's teaching;
for they are a fair garland for your head,
and pendants for your neck.

My son, if sinners entice you, do not consent.
If they say, "Come with us,
let us lie in wait for blood,
let us wantonly ambush the innocent;
like Sheol let us swallow them alive and whole,
like those who go down to the Pit;
we shall find all precious goods,
we shall fill our houses with spoil;
throw in your lot among us, we will all have one purse" --

my son, do not walk in the way with them,
hold back your foot from their paths;
for their feet run to evil,
and they make haste to shed blood.
For in vain is a net spread in the sight of any bird;
but these men lie in wait for their own blood,
they set an ambush for their own lives.
Such are the ways of all who get gain by violence;
it takes away the life of its possessors.

For the LORD gives wisdom;
from his mouth come knowledge and understanding;
he stores up sound wisdom for the upright;
he is a shield to those who walk in integrity,
guarding the paths of justice
and preserving the way of his saints.

Then you will understand righteousness and justice
and equity, every good path;
for wisdom will come into your heart,
and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul;
discretion will watch over you;
understanding will guard you;
delivering you from the way of evil,
from men of perverted speech,
who forsake the paths of uprightness
to walk in the ways of darkness,
who rejoice in doing evil
and delight in the perverseness of evil;
men whose paths are crooked,
and who are devious in their ways.

You will be saved from the loose woman,
from the adventuress with her smooth words,
who forsakes the companion of her youth
and forgets the covenant of her God;
for her house sinks down to death,
and her paths to the shades;
none who go to her come back
nor do they regain the paths of life.


Proverbs 1:8-19, 2:6-19


8 posted on 12/30/2005 10:18:45 AM PST by Knitting A Conundrum (Act Justly, Love Mercy, and Walk Humbly With God Micah 6:8)
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