"Jesus, send me here my purgatory, and so prevent the torments of that cleansing fire, which, after this life, awaits unpurged souls. Vouchsafe to grant me those merciful crosses and afflictions, which Thou seest are necessary to break off my affections from all things here below. Since none can see Thee that loves any thing but for Thy sake, permit not my heart to find here any rest but a seeking after Thee. Too bitter, alas!, will be the anguish of a separated soul that desires, but cannot come to Thee, clogged with the heavy chains of sin. Here then, O my Savior, keep me continually mortified in this world; that purged thoroughly by the fire of love, I may immediately pass into the everlasting possessions."
That's so true its hot to the touch. This is puts your mind right into the first sorrowful mystery. Getting the guts up to ask for that... gotta be done though. I hate being weak.