Thanks so much for your understanding and compassion.
Sometimes folks need understanding and compassion, sometimes they need a cold bucket of water to wake them up.
Everyone from Reformed to Roman Catholic has given you a consistent answer about the Chick tracts. NYer has given specific suggestions which are helpful in exploring where you stand with regard to Catholic teaching.
You claim to be confused, but deep down you know which way you are being pulled, either toward or away from the Catholic church. You are just fighting it (or more accurately, the Holy Spirit.)