You didn't say how old you are now, so I wonder how long it's been since your 'revelation', as you call it. I only mention that because after the initial 'epiphany', a certain reality sets in. I'll leave that for you to discover.
'These men who were hired last worked only one hour,' they said, 'and you have made them equal to us who have borne the burden of the work and the heat of the day.'
"But he answered one of them, 'Friend, I am not being unfair to you. Didn't you agree to work for a denarius? Take your pay and go. I want to give the man who was hired last the same as I gave you."
Mel