May God wrap his arms around you and continue to give you strength.We are all so very sorry,dear Bogdan.Our prayers will continue for you and your family.
You have a right to be angry. Don't worry about it. God can handle the anger. Be as angry as you need to be; the love of your life was taken from you.
Shout to heaven, if you must.
The good Lord understands your pain, and your anger.
God be with you.