The question is to what extent your faith is in your own faith. And how much you can rely on it now? Can you say you "never really believed" what you were preaching?
The other question that Dave keeps hinting at is what you feel about those non-believers who believe in lots of OTHER "false" things and what way God uses those beliefs.
The other question that Dave keeps hinting at is what you feel about those non-believers who believe in lots of OTHER "false" things and what way God uses those beliefs.
What do you care? My answers are not credible to you.
G-d/YHWH uses all type of people. As Dave has pointed out, YHWH even uses pedophile priests.