Sort of like the scene in Indiana Jones, the Last Crusade where Harrison Ford steps out into the abyss and the bridge appears AFTER he's taken the first step.
Faith is not easy, even when you've been a Christian for a really long time. You've just had the advantage of seeing God work, and provide for you in the past, and know that He'll do it again.
He'll take care of you, lawgirl. You did the right thing!
Stepping out in faith can be that way, sometimes!