tell that to the many martyrs in Christ. in terms of our Lord, i’ll quote from memory:
‘He who would would be my disciple must deny himself, take up his cross and follow Me.’
i would call that pretty clear.
To deny yourself and your own desires (Matthew 16:24)
To be willing to lose your life for Jesus’ sake (Matthew 16:25)
To surrender to God’s will, even if it means facing difficulties, hardships, or even death (Matthew 10:38)
To acknowledge your vulnerability and weakness, just as Jesus did on the cross (Mark 8:34)
To publicly identify with Christ and His teachings, even if it means facing opposition or ridicule (Matthew 10:38)
I don't know about you, but that is a far cry from someone cursing at speaking mean to you as being crucified.
But if you wish to make that your interpretation, then so be it. 🙂👍