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Like having to forcibly hold somebody down while you inject them?

Many here know that I had a head injury over a dozen years ago now.

I survived it but the suffering for maybe 5 or 6 years was so bad I lost count of the number of days I wanted to die. I went to bed with a bottle of oxycodone in case I couldn’t take the pain in my head anymore and decided to kill myself. I didn’t know your head could hurt so much.

Several times I went into the psych ward voluntarily just to have a few weeks of protection from myself to regather and fight another year.

doctors said all healing was first three years and that’s it so I really had no hope.

And I did take a tremendous amount of benzodiazepines once and it wasn’t a cry for help it was a cry for death :-)

I ended up in the emergency room having nightmares that those big scary Muppets were operating on me.

Then six years later after this all began I started to feel a tiny bit less pain. Then the next year a little less until finally I wake up now sometimes with headaches that last a few minutes only and I have no pain during the day at all. And many mornings I wake up with no pain just some tremors.

And they only last a few minutes

I got to see President Trump get elected and got to vote for him. I got to see my first Grand nephew born. I got to remember how great it felt to hold a woman :-)

Great meals. Great times with family. A lot of fun just watching a movie I like and eating a pizza.

I have asked God’s forgiveness for the suicide attempt and thankef him for all he has done for me.

There is some other residual damage but nothing I can’t live with. And nothing I would die over.

Too many people to count, they would have been affected by my being euthanized. It’s a bad idea. We should stay away from it

God is truly great.

If there was a euthanasia van that went to people’s houses I am sure I would have called them.