That would be because it IS NOT healthy anymore. You received horrible advice and you CHOSE to follow that horrible advice. For the rest of your life you will pay for your life-wrecking mistake.
However, by telling your story, you can probably convince some people not to do what you did. Given the extremely high transsexual suicide rate, you might save some lives.
For the doctors doing this its a double win: they get paid AND they get virtue signaling credit about how open minded they are. The needs of the patient arent really a factor in that equation.
And lest someone say do you really think doctors are that mercenary? I say ones who mutilate their patients to treat mental illness are