[ChildOfThe60s]

When I carry I feel somewhat safer but feel also the weight of a serious responsibility.

Maybe that’s what he means by “smaller”. That he is not capable of the responsibility. Which is assuming he understands the concept of personal responsibility. Which is unlikely since he is a far left loon.

[yarddog]

You might be right.

[MV=PY]

"When I carry I feel somewhat safer but feel also the weight of a serious responsibility."

Exactly.