Yup, those are just your private thoughts.
Happily that isn’t at all what the Lord has to say.
Once again you are flapping your lips about a different lord. NOT one place in the whole of the WORD can you site one place wherein God ever sanctioned the usage of mind altering drugs/that would also include alcohol as being acceptable...
You are so far out there as to WHAT God said you might as well be preaching for Satan...