no no- i went hte other way- I was i nhell- it wasn’t simpel darkenss- it was hell- overpowering, suffocating, unbearably hot- screams of souls i couldn’t see- creatures/insects crawling all over me but i couldn’t move to escape them- and I was ‘given a test’ by God- I had to count sounds- and at first I was able to keep up- but the sounds got faster and faster, and I couldn’t anymore, and I wept- then the voice said “Don’t’ worry, you don’t exist”- and then the real hell began- complete nothingness- it was absolutely frightening- being aware of nothingness somehow- an eternity of this strange mix of awareness and ‘not existing’
Like I said- it was a very powerful experience- whatever it was- I personally believe it was misfiring synapses as i was slipping away- I had a fever of 106 and went into convulsions, and i believe the synapses were misfiring and brought on this ‘vivid dreaming’ state- but again- wow- it was as if it actually happened it seemed so real
lemme just try to expand on that ‘nothingness’ fear
I was conscious of being in a vast empty pitch black ‘space’ just floating around, alone- no God, No Devil, no nothing- and the sense of helplessness that came over me about never being able to escape this state of ‘nothingness’ (technically it wasn’t nothingness- but it was a close as you can get ot nothingness while still being conscious of ‘not existing’ it’s hard to describe)