It's Been an Honor

Self | Sept. 13, 2013 | Mesta

[MestaMachine]

Dear FRiends,

This day is Erev Yom Kippur, (Yom Kippur Eve,) usually commemorated with two festive meals, the giving of charity, and asking others for forgiveness. This is to ask YOUR forgiveness for not explaining why all of my pings have stopped without anyone knowing why.

I wouldn't exactly call this a 'vanity', more like an explanation and apology to all of you who have added your names to any of my lists for why you don't get those oh, so many pings anymore.

Below is what this post started as. And THIS is how it ended. I figured it was better to show you *what only ywp pr three [ep[;e a;ready know than tp have you thonl I just qioy/>[?

*what only two or three people already know than to have you think I just quit.

To All the Freat freepers om amy of my ping ;ists.

Paet od this post is comp;etely unedited and pitposefully so. It's to show you as best I ca hy O dpm't [pst very ,uch any,ore.

Ihave ;pst ,ost comyro; pf ,y ,pypr skills and my eyesught is fokkowing very closely/ Both are failing and tryong to pst even one line takes amywjere frpm 20 ,imutes to hald an hour and stil has ty[ps even though I thinl it looks all right. It is frusteating amd embarrassing, nit I don't want anyobe to thiml I a, ignorong or disinterested becaise nothing could be further fro, the truth.

The illness conbomed woth a ,addive quantity of frigs has made ,y duslexoa nearly i,possible to cope with. Sometines I will type the same wrong letter three or fpir ti,es before I get iy roght and I odten end up in tears.

So you see. O do SO apologize if I have let you sowm or goven the ompression that just stopped caring. O woll never stop carong.

Thanl you and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. U read them all at 150 ,agnification,

U started this post at 2:-- AM pm the dot/ Oy is npw 2:30 and I am gpog tp edot ot.

Translation:
To All the Great Freepers on any of my ping lists:

Part of this post is completely unedited and purposefully so. It's to show you as best I can why I don't post very much anymore.

I have lost lost control of my motor skills and my eyesight is following very closely. Both are failing and trying to post even one line takes anywhere from 20 minutes to half an hour and still has typos even though I think it looks all right. It is frustrating and embarrassing, but I don't want anyone to think I am ignoring or disinterested because nothing could be further from the truth.

The illness combined with a massive quantity of drugs has made my dyslexia nearly impossible to cope with. Sometimes I will type the same wrong letter three or four times before I get it right and I often end up in tears.

So you see. I do SO apologize if I have let you down or given the impression that I just stopped caring. I will never stop caring.

Thank you, and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. I read them all at 150 magnification.

I started this post at 2:00 AM on the dot. It is now 3:20 and I edited it but I have to add something. (Editing as I go now.)

When this first started, and the posts were really screwed up even after I had edited them, I would ask the mods, who I am so grateful to, to pull them and sometimes they were gone before I even got back to the page. Thank you, Mods. I realized I couldn't keep doing that for long. The Mods aren't babysitters and they have more important things to do than stop me from embarrassing myself.

The final kicker though, was a Freepmail I sent to Brad's Gramma. She sent it back to me and said it was the first good laugh she had had all day. When I saw what I had sent, I was beside myself. She understood it, but I don't know how. And that was the end mostly.

I have several rather large ping lists and would be extremely grateful if someone could take one or two and get the word out. Please Freepmail me if you would. I will give the links and graphics and explain how to keep the indexes right with the links. Anything I can do to help, I will...gladly.

Tomorrow is Yom Kippur and I will be offline all day from sundown today. May G-d hear my prayers.

You guys have all been terrific and I am so sorry.

Finished at 4:55 AM. Holding to post until afternoon.

[jch10]

I’ll know you are still there now. Thanks for allowing us to share this with you.

[sarasmom]

Thank you for letting me know.
I have missed your pings.

Prayers sent, that your private needs and wants are all met, as you slowly step away from us, and walk another path, one we will all eventually tread.

[Marcella]

I have told you how much I admire you and I always will. I will pray every day for you.
Marcella

[sgtyork]

Gpd be with you MestaMachine.

[Duchess47]

Prayers and God Bless You.

[Third Person]

Keep fighting and keep posting.

[TauntedTiger]

Typos schmypos, just get your freedom loving mind back in the game when you are feeling better!

Best wishes FRiend

[hoosiermama]

Hugs dear Mesta. Thank you for all you’ve done to keep us informed

[exit82]

Mesta, your posts are always welcome.

Don’t worry if they aren’t perfect—we’ll figure it out and it adds to the fun and challenge!

Freepers all over the globe will be asking each other:”Do YOU know what she said? I think she said....”

Talk about inciting interactions!

We might all start writing in “MM” code, just for the heck of it, and to drive the NSA folks crazy!!

And when you cannot write, do something that accomplishes more than a million words: pray.

America needs prayer like never before.

And we need Freepers like you like never before.

Stay in the game.

[miserare]

Thank you, dear Mesta, for all your efforts over the years to keep us informed.

I hope your High Holy Days have been excellent this year, with many blessings from Above.

Wishing you health and happiness always!

[miserare]

AMEN!

[woofie]

All the best

[KC_Lion]

Your Post has brought tears to my Eyes Sweetest Mesta.

You are in my Prayers everyday.

You are an Inspiration to me.

Please stick around F.R. for as long as you can. You make it a Better Place.

G'mar Hatimah Tovah

[arasina]

God bless you, Mesta.

[I_be_tc]

Thank you, Mesta for all the necessary pings you have sent me. You helped keep me informed and enlightened.

I will keep you in my prayers.

TC

[KC_Lion]

May this be an Inspration to you Mesta as you are to me, from Sarah Palin for Yom Kippur:

My best wishes to the Jewish community today as Yom Kippur is celebrated. This is the most solemn and important of the Jewish holy days wherein we’re reminded of humanity’s timeless struggle for peace and justice in a world in need of redemption. May we never cease striving for these ideals, may we never lose hope in the ultimate goodness of God, and may we always seek His unearned mercy and grace. It is amazing that He miraculously and freely gives to those who ask and accept.

I received such a meaningful gift yesterday from friends in New York. This photo shows the rose they sent me; it’s handcrafted out of the remains of rockets fired at Sderot and other Israeli communities from Gaza. The sculpture represents people who grow roses from rockets, “creating beauty from ashes,” representing an Israel that has endured so much. May the people of Israel know who their friends are, and may they know peace.

- Sarah Palin

[Guenevere]

Peace to you.....Blessings and honor.

You are much loved here.

[Cicero]

That is marvelous!

[Admin Moderator]

The Mods aren't babysitters and they have more important things to do than stop me from embarrassing myself.

The mods will always have your back Mesta. Don't worry about that.

[Travis McGee]

I’m so sorry to hear that posting has been such a difficulty, you are one of the greatest freepers, you will be sorely missed! You will be in our prayers, and on our ping lists....