It's Been an Honor

Self | Sept. 13, 2013 | Mesta

[MestaMachine]

Dear FRiends,

This day is Erev Yom Kippur, (Yom Kippur Eve,) usually commemorated with two festive meals, the giving of charity, and asking others for forgiveness. This is to ask YOUR forgiveness for not explaining why all of my pings have stopped without anyone knowing why.

I wouldn't exactly call this a 'vanity', more like an explanation and apology to all of you who have added your names to any of my lists for why you don't get those oh, so many pings anymore.

Below is what this post started as. And THIS is how it ended. I figured it was better to show you *what only ywp pr three [ep[;e a;ready know than tp have you thonl I just qioy/>[?

*what only two or three people already know than to have you think I just quit.

To All the Freat freepers om amy of my ping ;ists.

Paet od this post is comp;etely unedited and pitposefully so. It's to show you as best I ca hy O dpm't [pst very ,uch any,ore.

Ihave ;pst ,ost comyro; pf ,y ,pypr skills and my eyesught is fokkowing very closely/ Both are failing and tryong to pst even one line takes amywjere frpm 20 ,imutes to hald an hour and stil has ty[ps even though I thinl it looks all right. It is frusteating amd embarrassing, nit I don't want anyobe to thiml I a, ignorong or disinterested becaise nothing could be further fro, the truth.

The illness conbomed woth a ,addive quantity of frigs has made ,y duslexoa nearly i,possible to cope with. Sometines I will type the same wrong letter three or fpir ti,es before I get iy roght and I odten end up in tears.

So you see. O do SO apologize if I have let you sowm or goven the ompression that just stopped caring. O woll never stop carong.

Thanl you and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. U read them all at 150 ,agnification,

U started this post at 2:-- AM pm the dot/ Oy is npw 2:30 and I am gpog tp edot ot.

Translation:
To All the Great Freepers on any of my ping lists:

Part of this post is completely unedited and purposefully so. It's to show you as best I can why I don't post very much anymore.

I have lost lost control of my motor skills and my eyesight is following very closely. Both are failing and trying to post even one line takes anywhere from 20 minutes to half an hour and still has typos even though I think it looks all right. It is frustrating and embarrassing, but I don't want anyone to think I am ignoring or disinterested because nothing could be further from the truth.

The illness combined with a massive quantity of drugs has made my dyslexia nearly impossible to cope with. Sometimes I will type the same wrong letter three or four times before I get it right and I often end up in tears.

So you see. I do SO apologize if I have let you down or given the impression that I just stopped caring. I will never stop caring.

Thank you, and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. I read them all at 150 magnification.

I started this post at 2:00 AM on the dot. It is now 3:20 and I edited it but I have to add something. (Editing as I go now.)

When this first started, and the posts were really screwed up even after I had edited them, I would ask the mods, who I am so grateful to, to pull them and sometimes they were gone before I even got back to the page. Thank you, Mods. I realized I couldn't keep doing that for long. The Mods aren't babysitters and they have more important things to do than stop me from embarrassing myself.

The final kicker though, was a Freepmail I sent to Brad's Gramma. She sent it back to me and said it was the first good laugh she had had all day. When I saw what I had sent, I was beside myself. She understood it, but I don't know how. And that was the end mostly.

I have several rather large ping lists and would be extremely grateful if someone could take one or two and get the word out. Please Freepmail me if you would. I will give the links and graphics and explain how to keep the indexes right with the links. Anything I can do to help, I will...gladly.

Tomorrow is Yom Kippur and I will be offline all day from sundown today. May G-d hear my prayers.

You guys have all been terrific and I am so sorry.

Finished at 4:55 AM. Holding to post until afternoon.

[BuckeyeTexan]

You’re a good egg Mesta. I pray that the Lord heals you and returns you to us in whole.

God Bless,
Buckeye

[musicman]

Prayers up here Mesta!!

(OBTW, the paragraph you typed looks and reads better than my BEST attempt of any message I’ve EVER sent on my “smartphone”!! Just ask anyone who has received one!!)

[Col Freeper]

Prayers lifted for you and your family MM.

[John Galt's cousin]

Our Father in Heaven knows you as one of His Own. I join in prayer with our brother and sister FRrepers that He eases your pain and gives you strength.

Your efforts have helped me to know a little bit about the

Via con Dios

[MinuteGal]

As it's been said....."we freepers have got your back, always."

And you've got our hearts, always.

I'm praying for improvements in your health....and will continue to do so.

Leni/MinuteGal

[Domestic Church]

Sending cyber hugs and prayers. Wishing you peace and all good things dear FRiend.

[humblegunner]

Oh Crap!
My thoughts are with you.

[azishot]

No apologies are necessary, MM. It’s MY honor to know you. May God hold you tight and may He hear my prayers of healing and comfort for you. Love you, dear one.

[John Galt's cousin]

...know a little bit about the Benghazi betrayal. Thank you for all of your service, including your work here.

God bless you and keep you safe...

[Bobalu]

May G-d bless you, my FRiend.

[jazusamo]

Prayers up, MM.

May God Bless You.

[Darnright]

Thank you, Mesta. Words cannot thank you enough for the work you have done and have then shared on FR. You are a soldier to the end and we who have been blessed to be on your ping list are fortunate indeed. May G-D bless you and keep you safe. And, if it is His will, may you be healed.

I will be honored to ping you to threads I think you will find of interest.

[notted]

The honor is ours, thank you for your diligence and dignity. May God bring you healing and good health.

Patiently awaiting your return.

[ozaukeemom]

God bless you. You are in my prayers.

['smith]

We’re all with you.

I, too, am visually impaired. Try using the High Contrast #1 in the Color Scheme Menu in the Appearance menu of the Display menu in Control Panel. It’s not perfect but it makes a HUGH difference.

Shalom

[rodguy911]

As I have said before and now repeat you are and remain an FR treasure. Few if any have your resolve and sheer guts to take on the hard jobs of research and pure information gathering you have done for so long. We all owe "you" a deep debt of thanks and no apologies are ever necessary on your part. Thanks for doing what you do and here's hoping you get well soon.

[null and void]

You need no forgiveness from me, but I offer it just in case, along with my best wishes, my undying respect, and love.

May HaShem hold you in his arms and comfort and heal you.

[Lazamataz]

Awww bro... don’t go. Just take your time and use the handicap accessories that ship with almost every computer. Stick around!

[fatima]

What does that mean?I am holding you close in prayer.I read your profile and you have been through alot.Hope the meds work fast and don’t worry about the pings you send .There will always be another time ((((Hugs))))Fatima

[Cicero]

God bless you, MestaMachine. May you have a happy and blessed Yom Kippur. I, too, am grateful for all that you have done here over the years.

I am praying for you.