Posted on 09/13/2013 4:19:05 PM PDT by MestaMachine
Dear FRiends,
This day is Erev Yom Kippur, (Yom Kippur Eve,) usually commemorated with two festive meals, the giving of charity, and asking others for forgiveness. This is to ask YOUR forgiveness for not explaining why all of my pings have stopped without anyone knowing why.
I wouldn't exactly call this a 'vanity', more like an explanation and apology to all of you who have added your names to any of my lists for why you don't get those oh, so many pings anymore.
Below is what this post started as. And THIS is how it ended. I figured it was better to show you *what only ywp pr three [ep[;e a;ready know than tp have you thonl I just qioy/>[?
*what only two or three people already know than to have you think I just quit.
To All the Freat freepers om amy of my ping ;ists.
Paet od this post is comp;etely unedited and pitposefully so. It's to show you as best I ca hy O dpm't [pst very ,uch any,ore.
Ihave ;pst ,ost comyro; pf ,y ,pypr skills and my eyesught is fokkowing very closely/ Both are failing and tryong to pst even one line takes amywjere frpm 20 ,imutes to hald an hour and stil has ty[ps even though I thinl it looks all right. It is frusteating amd embarrassing, nit I don't want anyobe to thiml I a, ignorong or disinterested becaise nothing could be further fro, the truth.
The illness conbomed woth a ,addive quantity of frigs has made ,y duslexoa nearly i,possible to cope with. Sometines I will type the same wrong letter three or fpir ti,es before I get iy roght and I odten end up in tears.
So you see. O do SO apologize if I have let you sowm or goven the ompression that just stopped caring. O woll never stop carong.
Thanl you and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. U read them all at 150 ,agnification,
U started this post at 2:-- AM pm the dot/ Oy is npw 2:30 and I am gpog tp edot ot.
Translation:
To All the Great Freepers on any of my ping lists:
Part of this post is completely unedited and purposefully so. It's to show you as best I can why I don't post very much anymore.
I have lost lost control of my motor skills and my eyesight is following very closely. Both are failing and trying to post even one line takes anywhere from 20 minutes to half an hour and still has typos even though I think it looks all right. It is frustrating and embarrassing, but I don't want anyone to think I am ignoring or disinterested because nothing could be further from the truth.
The illness combined with a massive quantity of drugs has made my dyslexia nearly impossible to cope with. Sometimes I will type the same wrong letter three or four times before I get it right and I often end up in tears.
So you see. I do SO apologize if I have let you down or given the impression that I just stopped caring. I will never stop caring.
Thank you, and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. I read them all at 150 magnification.
I started this post at 2:00 AM on the dot. It is now 3:20 and I edited it but I have to add something. (Editing as I go now.)
When this first started, and the posts were really screwed up even after I had edited them, I would ask the mods, who I am so grateful to, to pull them and sometimes they were gone before I even got back to the page. Thank you, Mods. I realized I couldn't keep doing that for long. The Mods aren't babysitters and they have more important things to do than stop me from embarrassing myself.
The final kicker though, was a Freepmail I sent to Brad's Gramma. She sent it back to me and said it was the first good laugh she had had all day. When I saw what I had sent, I was beside myself. She understood it, but I don't know how. And that was the end mostly.
I have several rather large ping lists and would be extremely grateful if someone could take one or two and get the word out. Please Freepmail me if you would. I will give the links and graphics and explain how to keep the indexes right with the links. Anything I can do to help, I will...gladly.
Tomorrow is Yom Kippur and I will be offline all day from sundown today. May G-d hear my prayers.
You guys have all been terrific and I am so sorry.
Finished at 4:55 AM. Holding to post until afternoon.
Oh that’s funny...I posted about her writing a book too before I read your comment ! Are you listening Mesta????
By the power vested in me, in view of your esteemed research, I confer upon you the doctorate degree of Pepperology.
Henceforth, you will be known as “Dr. Pepper”.
Especially at 2,4 and 10 o’clock.
Hey, many old remedies were herbal and not all were inert placebos either. Modern pharmacology, in spite of all the miracle medicines it has, might have its own biases. I say the best of both is the Lord’s good provision.
Cowper is an illustrative figure. He, sadly, never seemed to penetrate theologically past the “frowning providence” to a Lord that actually conducted trials for the exercise to the good of His children, even if the children partly failed the trials. Doesn’t mean Cowper failed to have salvation, or lost the salvation, but this lack of faith and his shallow vision did a number on his spiritual life. He was paralyzed by the Calvinist vision (in some versions at least) of a predetermined damnation for a mortally unknown and unknowable set. This now strikes me as a thoroughly inadequate theology and if I had to assert something it would be a “Calminian” vision. But to some stricken by the ordeal, it comes as a seeming conviction that they have committed the unpardonable sin, and it issues from hell not from heaven.
Who has tried speech recognition?
That is true for a lot of people, but I have ALWAYS believed that G-d is with me. Always. No matter what ever ever ever. I can’t say it enough. My soul is not for forfeit for any reason anytime..
I doeth hundly acceot this honor.
And I humbly accept it too.
What an amazing story! Thank you so very much for sharing God’s grace with us. God is indeed working miracles on you Mesta and you are hearing his wisdom and open to receiving His grace. THAT makes all the difference.
I am thinking of making a very peppery stew now myself!
I do not know how any man presumes to judge FOR the Lord nor do I understand why so many are so willing to forfeit eternity for the short time we have here.
I can’t imagine it at all.
Add some forr me. I am starbing.
AND BESIDES THAT, I’M HUNGRY TOO.
Har. I guess you earned my caps.
Your posts are so very special. You pour so much energy into your posts that you share with us so generously. We are here and we are praying for you. Take good care of yourself.
C
Wow.
That took an amazing amount of effort for you. Thank you for giving us the update, even though you did not have to.
The thought of being able to read FR and not being able to respond would drive me crazy.
-—Can you still speak? Have you tried one of those speech to text programs?-—
I’ll say a little prayer for you!
Google Chrome has speech to text? wow
She could have been one of the old testament Judges (think Judge Dredd without firearms and flying machines), and one of those was a woman.
I enjoyed reading this and am fascinated! God does work in very interesting ways and I see HIM in your story. So very happy to read this update. Keeping you in my prayers Mesta.
Haha!! Hungry and all caps..A GOOD SIGN!! Glad your spirits are high! You are an inspiration.
Well, you’ve convinced me! Tomorrow I add extra black pepper, ground fine, to my chili for lunch. ... BTW, I take it the magic word is PEPPER!
They have high concentration of capsacian but are still edible.
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