Posted on 09/13/2013 4:19:05 PM PDT by MestaMachine
Dear FRiends,
This day is Erev Yom Kippur, (Yom Kippur Eve,) usually commemorated with two festive meals, the giving of charity, and asking others for forgiveness. This is to ask YOUR forgiveness for not explaining why all of my pings have stopped without anyone knowing why.
I wouldn't exactly call this a 'vanity', more like an explanation and apology to all of you who have added your names to any of my lists for why you don't get those oh, so many pings anymore.
Below is what this post started as. And THIS is how it ended. I figured it was better to show you *what only ywp pr three [ep[;e a;ready know than tp have you thonl I just qioy/>[?
*what only two or three people already know than to have you think I just quit.
To All the Freat freepers om amy of my ping ;ists.
Paet od this post is comp;etely unedited and pitposefully so. It's to show you as best I ca hy O dpm't [pst very ,uch any,ore.
Ihave ;pst ,ost comyro; pf ,y ,pypr skills and my eyesught is fokkowing very closely/ Both are failing and tryong to pst even one line takes amywjere frpm 20 ,imutes to hald an hour and stil has ty[ps even though I thinl it looks all right. It is frusteating amd embarrassing, nit I don't want anyobe to thiml I a, ignorong or disinterested becaise nothing could be further fro, the truth.
The illness conbomed woth a ,addive quantity of frigs has made ,y duslexoa nearly i,possible to cope with. Sometines I will type the same wrong letter three or fpir ti,es before I get iy roght and I odten end up in tears.
So you see. O do SO apologize if I have let you sowm or goven the ompression that just stopped caring. O woll never stop carong.
Thanl you and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. U read them all at 150 ,agnification,
U started this post at 2:-- AM pm the dot/ Oy is npw 2:30 and I am gpog tp edot ot.
Translation:
To All the Great Freepers on any of my ping lists:
Part of this post is completely unedited and purposefully so. It's to show you as best I can why I don't post very much anymore.
I have lost lost control of my motor skills and my eyesight is following very closely. Both are failing and trying to post even one line takes anywhere from 20 minutes to half an hour and still has typos even though I think it looks all right. It is frustrating and embarrassing, but I don't want anyone to think I am ignoring or disinterested because nothing could be further from the truth.
The illness combined with a massive quantity of drugs has made my dyslexia nearly impossible to cope with. Sometimes I will type the same wrong letter three or four times before I get it right and I often end up in tears.
So you see. I do SO apologize if I have let you down or given the impression that I just stopped caring. I will never stop caring.
Thank you, and please don't stop pinging me to articles of interest. I read them all at 150 magnification.
I started this post at 2:00 AM on the dot. It is now 3:20 and I edited it but I have to add something. (Editing as I go now.)
When this first started, and the posts were really screwed up even after I had edited them, I would ask the mods, who I am so grateful to, to pull them and sometimes they were gone before I even got back to the page. Thank you, Mods. I realized I couldn't keep doing that for long. The Mods aren't babysitters and they have more important things to do than stop me from embarrassing myself.
The final kicker though, was a Freepmail I sent to Brad's Gramma. She sent it back to me and said it was the first good laugh she had had all day. When I saw what I had sent, I was beside myself. She understood it, but I don't know how. And that was the end mostly.
I have several rather large ping lists and would be extremely grateful if someone could take one or two and get the word out. Please Freepmail me if you would. I will give the links and graphics and explain how to keep the indexes right with the links. Anything I can do to help, I will...gladly.
Tomorrow is Yom Kippur and I will be offline all day from sundown today. May G-d hear my prayers.
You guys have all been terrific and I am so sorry.
Finished at 4:55 AM. Holding to post until afternoon.
Thanks for the update on Mesta’s condition, Lucy. That woman is a walking miracle. What she’s been through would probably kill most of us several times over. What a fighter!
Obviously, all of the prayers and well wishes are helping. I honestly don’t know how a human being can live through so much physical stress without them.
We’ll keep sending ‘em!
Thank you, LucyT, for the uplifting update.
Yay, Mesta! Yep. Prayer works.
Prayers Mesta.
Continued prayers.
This is welcome news indeed.
God bless, Mesta!!!
Thank you for the Update!
A big weight has been lifted knowing that Mesta is getting better, even if it is slowly; and that God obviously directed her to a great Doctor.
Prayers seem to be helping greatly too! I will continue praying and hoping that the pain and suffering will be healed quickly.
Hang in there, FR is waiting for one of our best to come back ;^)
Bikk
Thank you Lucy for the update on MM. My family and I are continuing our prayers for your complete healing Mesta!! God is working miracles on you my FRiend! Hang in there.
These simple kinds of things are often overlooked by conventional medicine in favor of pharma drugs and surgeries.
Luv U, Mest@! :)
Prayers up!
Don’t post much but have always been thankful for your posts.
I hope you feel better very soon Mesta.
May God bless and heal you Mesta! You are one of his shining lights!
Thank you so much for the update! Made my day!! Blessings to you Mesta. May God watch over you and your doctors. Will keep praying for you.
Thank you LucyT for the wonderful update.
My prayers will remain with this sweet and amazing woman.
"Ask and you shall receive...when two or more are gathered in my name..."
Looks like the DR. DID see through His eyes...and DID know what needs doing of...and knocked Mesta out completely to endure the duration there....likely much needed rest in a safe place followed....with good news....the ulcer IS healing!
Onward..... "Oh Thee who walks where angels feared to tread"
Thanks so much for the message from Mesta..much appreciated for sure!
You have my prayers, MestaMachine.
Dan
Mesta, you are in my thought and prayers. God Bless.
You are an inspiration to me. I’m in tears here trying to comprehend the love it takes to communicate an “I’m sorry” message for something so out of your control.
I can’t imagine what it must be like to have your intellect bottled up by your body. Maybe speech to text is the answer, because FR without Mesta is so much less than it was.
In any event, I can’t thank you enough for the wisdom and perspective you’ve passed.
May God bless you and reveal His purpose to you, and may it bring you peace.
Christ Has No Body
Christ has no body but yours,
No hands, no feet on earth but yours,
Yours are the eyes with which he looks
Compassion on this world,
Yours are the feet with which he walks to do good,
Yours are the hands, with which he blesses all the world.
Yours are the hands, yours are the feet,
Yours are the eyes, you are his body.
Christ has no body now but yours,
No hands, no feet on earth but yours,
Yours are the eyes with which he looks
compassion on this world.
Christ has no body now on earth but yours.
-Teresa of Avila (1515–1582)
Thank you for sharing this, Mesta. There is always hope, and I hope that you can get the condition under control through whatever means available. Your effort to get through this post is also appreciated. I wish you faith and luck, and most importantly will ask our lord to help you out in this challenge. Please don’t lose touch completely, wisdom is always welcome here, whether in long sentences or short comments.
One of the things about Mesta is that she always finds the solution.
This nature remedy was black pepper. Not something I’d have expected, but its properties are amazing.
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