Everything was fine. Marriage good, finances good, work going very well, feeling good with God, nothing haunting me, but I wanted to end it. Thank God I thought about everything and questioned "Why?, everything is really good!"
Then I realized the only thing different was the meds. I stopped taking them and was back on an even keel two days later.
It sure surprised me.
I'd rather hurt a little than be in that frame of mind, any day.
Consider, too, I really did not have any problems--which to me only emphasizes the danger of an unforseen side effect.
“I took Bextra for a whole three days. After that I wanted to end it.”
Good thing you were clear headed enough to think through the thoughts. Many people in your situation find the drugs overwhelm them and they follow through. It’s why so many drugs come with clear instructions that any thoughts to harm yourself must be reported to your doctor immediately.
I had a guy I worked with take drugs for a mental condition and one day took several extra. He didn’t know why. He couldn’t rationalize it. He just did. The thought of sleeping forever was comforting at the time so he just did it in a near sleep state. He cored several times before they got him stable. He actually loves life. It sucks sometimes but he has a great sense of humor and loves being alive, yet, the drugs caused him to desire something totally out of character. He has a great wife and watches for those things in him now.